How many times have we doubt our pathway?
“Is this really what you want for me Lord? Nothing is happening, should I just turn back? Will the destination be worth it? God, this is too hard to handle. Can I just back off?”
I have a lot of moments like that with God in my previous days. In those days of vulnerability, I admit my faith got a bit brittle. My hope was slowly deteriorating and I kept giving in to fears. Yet God whose love is so furious He doesn’t want us to remain in that position. He always makes sure we hear His word because faith arises through hearing it. Just like Peter, when he was distracted with the great wind and began to sink, God pulled him out of the water. Same thing with us, God is always on the rescue of supplying faith whenever we start losing them.
Aren’t you grateful we don’t have to push ourselves in becoming the man or woman of faith we should be? It is God’s doing to provide us the faith we need and all we have to do is receive and obey. As soon as we take that first crucial risky step, we will see God moving on our behalf. There might be some instances when God will ask us to wait patiently to see the end result. And upon waiting, the only way to keep us going is to trust the Lord and be joyful in all circumstances. I know this is easier said than done but hey God is there to encourage us and inspire us in the gap of going and seeing. Instead of moaning (like what I used to do) let’s saturate ourselves in His love knowing that God is with us even when we feel like nothing is progressing.
A while ago, I saw a satisfying video showing how seeds sprout. From our point of view, we will not see the little plants grow right after we dig them in and water them. However, even if we are not witnessing anything, in just a few days they’ll start to grow their roots. And one day, we will just be surprised to see that little budding plant saying hello from the ground. Just like in the waiting, God wants us to trust the process because behind the scene He is doing something unimaginable.
I hope and pray that we will learn to be that man and woman patiently and joyfully waiting. As for me, I know this is the area where God is pruning me. Hope deferred makes the heart sick. And I am thankful that even if at times I feel like backing off from where God wants me to go, He would show me that this path of uncertainty is worth taking because He is with me. I can choose to stay in my comfort zone but God will not be there. I’d rather go through the phase of difficulty knowing God is on my side. He promised He will not let me drown when the water rises. He promised He will not let me be burned when I go through fiery trials. He promised to be with me to the ends of the earth.
Believe and trust He is doing something even if you don’t see because that’s what faith is all about—being certain of the things unseen.
Sharing with you the song I’ve been listening to as I write this blog.
Keep breathing, keep going, you’ll get there. 😍