Lord, we may not have everything we desire in the world, yet we still have everything we need in You.
Last Saturday, I woke up a bit early when I was supposed to sleep it off all morning. I then just prayed for a good breakfast because our budget and food at that time was only for lunch and dinner.
(Budgeting 101) We usually budget our finances as soon as we receive our payouts. We would set aside tithes and offering (non-nego), investment, savings, medical fund, emergency fund, utilities, rent and the rest will be for our daily expenses including food. (Adulting! Haha)
Back to last Saturday, I was asking the Lord for a good breakfast since I don’t want to eat just cereals and milk at that time (Sorry for being picky hehe). All of a sudden, the owner of our condo unit (coz we’re just renting for the meantime) called me over the phone and asked if Angio and I were at home. I said yes and she told me “Okay Meryl, I have pandesal for the both of you for your breakfast.” Huhu I nearly cried when I heard that. I just told myself “The Lord is truly faithful in providing for us.”
And here is the bundle of pandesal freshly delivered….ta-da!
I woke up Angio and told him God has given us bread to eat. Good thing we still have Nutella and Peanut Butter spreads. We even had leftovers that morning which became our food supply for the next 3 days.
Truly, man does not live on bread alone but on every word that comes from God.
This is one of my simple joys on how God proves Himself to us. And I realized, If God can provide the little things we need how much more for the big things. I believe He is able to provide even for my pregnancy and for our life after giving birth to our baby. It’s just a matter of trusting the Lord. I’ve heard in one of the preachings (via podcast) if we think our money is not enough well guess what, it will never be enough. All we can do is really be faithful in these little things God is entrusting us and depend on the Lord to provide for our daily needs.
Also on that Saturday, Angio and I planned to have a lunch date outside home. Thankfully, we were able to eat out on a nice restaurant with delicious foods because of this GC that was given to us on our wedding day. It has been months since we had our last date in a fine dining environment. And all we could talk over that moment was how good God has been in our lives. Well, we admit we also had ups and downs. We also came to a point of doubting and endless questions to the Lord. But God, as faithful as he has ever been, still proves He is a good Father who never failed us.
We may not get the answers we are expecting in some of our prayers but we know God’s purpose and promises for our lives will prevail. Maybe, God is teaching us to embrace a life of gratitude whether in lack or in full. And along the way, we might even still come to a point of questioning. But despite our human frailties, God remains true to His word.
We somehow see our life like that of Abraham. When God told him...”go to the land I will show you”. God did not entirely reveal His destination but instead He gave a promise “…for I will make you of a great nation and I will bless you and your families.” And as soon as they arrive at the promised land, they saw famine. Instead of staying, they helped their way out by going to Egypt. If I were Abraham, I might probably do the same thing. And my question is “Why did God set up a famine on His promised land for Abraham?” To my conclusion, being in a promised land doesn’t guarantee a problem-less life. God allows those challenges to rise so that our faith and total dependance on Him can grow even more. Of course, some of us wouldn’t immediately get a grip of that. And even if we would take short cuts, God’s word for us will never come back empty. It will still be fulfilled because God is a promise-keeping God.
In the end, God still remained faithful in the life of Abraham and led them back to Canaan safely despite his shortcomings. God was still able to provide for them on that land where nations were birthed.
Just as He promised us that He will be our sole provider and He will enable Angio to provide for our family, it will certainly come to pass. It may not be on our own terms, but in His. This is why life in the Lord is called a faith-journey. Just like a little innocent child who can’t live without his parents, God wants that kind of full reliance in Him. Whether in small or big scales of life, whether in drought or rain total dependence and obedience is the key.
I know this is easier said than done. But I also hope we will allow God to increase our faith in the every day of our life. We may not get it at first, but God is patient and merciful in dealing with us. Even if we are inconsistent with our words, God remains firm in His. Even if we are faithless, God remains faithful. And even if we take a different route, God will still bring us back to that path towards His promised land.
Angio and I may face a lot of challenges at this season especially in the area of finances, but we pray that we will look to our Father in Heaven and follow Him wherever He would lead us because it says in His word:
“”Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink, nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing? Look at the birds of the air: they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they? And which of you by being anxious can add a single hour to his span of life? And why are you anxious about clothing? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow: they neither toil nor spin, yet I tell you, even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these. But if God so clothes the grass of the field, which today is alive and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? Therefore do not be anxious, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ For the Gentiles seek after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them all. But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you. “Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.”
Matthew 6:25-34 ESV
“He who did not spare his own Son but gave him up for us all, how will he not also with him graciously give us all things?”
Romans 8:32 ESV
“Now to him who is able to do far more abundantly than all that we ask or think, according to the power at work within us, to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, forever and ever. Amen.”
Ephesians 3:20-21 ESV